Imposter syndrome, self-doubt, and self-worth has a strong grip on me right now.
Currently, at age 36, I've accomplished a lot in my life. I have got used to terrible bosses, landed jobs with no real growth, no real support because of intense drama on all sides. There were times I had worked impactful jobs, but no real money was there. Do not quite have that vigor entrepreneurs have. Not sure why this imposter syndrome is so hard.
On paper, I recently graduated with my M.S. in adult, continuing, and higher education administration degree. BBA in Information Systems, even taught ESL in Korea for 2 years. Adaptable, Intelligent, and can learn so much in such a short time. So I should be good, but apart from me thinks my future I will be met with more opposition than I need to.
Apart from me thinks I am not good enough. Apart from me knows I know I need a job, but the soul part of me is sensitive, and I need a job that is good for me. Not just any job. I am too young to be tired, but I am. So much to think about, so much on my plate.
No criminal background, no addictions, people love me. Why does everyone seem to know what their purpose in life is, and I feel like I never will?
I just hope I get a salary worthy and a job where I can learn and grow. That's all I am asking for. I am not like the common man. Let them be common. I want a great life but does it have to always be so intense.
Just venting. sigh!